As of Late June 2011

As of late, I have not been blogging much because:
Lately, I have moved north an hour or so.
Lately, I started a new job, that comes with my own cubicle, phone extension, and most importantly, my own paycheck!
Lately, I have been really enjoying my new job.
Lately, I have made some great new friends.
Lately, I may have gotten my first speeding ticket via speed camera. Yuck!
Lately, I have been buzzing around to church activities like a social butterfly.
Lately, my awesome computer stuff, like blogging, and Goodreads, and weheartit, have been sadly neglected.
Because, lately, my own computer died and I have been using my aunt's.
And, lately, my divorce is almost final.

Hope y'all are having a wonderful June! Can you believe we are more than halfway through the halfway month of the year???

Busy Busy Busy

Well, I have started my new job. And I love it! It is very intense but fulfilling. I also have been hanging out with an awesome group of singles from my church. There is something almost every day of the week sometimes. And I love that too. But combined it all leaves me very tired. I like how my cousin sees it - that I am making the best of my life and she is proud of me. :)

It is very nice to be busy, fulfilling too. I love having a job I love and an active social life. I do miss my blogging though. Hopefully I will soon get into a groove that will allow me to fit in my blogging time. I miss it. It always helps me think things through better.

Have a great week, y'all! (oh the southern md in me!)

Mourning Period?

I keep seeing the idea floated around that it takes half the duration of a relationship to heal from it. I don't know if I like that. That would be a year and half, at least, to heal from my 3 year or so relationship. That just seems so long!

I feel better some days, but then I see a brief email from my ex and I lose it. How did our beautiful romance break down into absolute nothingness? It kills me!! I hate hurting, and just want to be done. I want to be able to say I have moved on.

 But I guess it doesn't work quite that way, huh?

The Story of Us by Taylor Swift does a good job of expressing how I feel sometimes. How it started so beautifully and broke down to tragedy...

Live More Intentionally

I keep doing these long disappearing acts. This time there are two reasons. One, my laptop up and died on me. Sadness! Luckily my aunt doesn't really use hers, so I am borrowing it until I can afford to buy a new one. Which leads me to reason number two: the start date of my job was delayed and I have been living very much minute to minute in the meanwhile. 

I've just been floating around: reading, playing Facebook games, and doing the occasional babysitting job. I spend time with my fun roommates and watch TV series on DVD. I went sailing this past weekend with friends and family, it was an incredible day. That felt a little more intentional because I'd been looking forward to it for months. Other than that my days are spent very aimlessly.

And it is beginning to drive me crazy. I want to live much more intentionally. I want to have a bit more purpose. I have tried exercising every day, and suceeded once. But someone sleeps on the couch in the room with the ellipitical and sleeps until like 1 pm. It makes it hard to exercise first thing. But I talked to my aunt (who doubles as my landlady) and we are doing some rearranging so that won't be a problem.

And then work starts next week, and I have a ton of activities after work next week as well. That will be the biggest help. And for tonight, I am gonna go play frisbee with some young single adults in my area. That should be fun!

Thanks for putting up with my rambling. Hopefully part of living more intentionally will be getting back into this blogging thing, cuz I miss it!

Happy Wednesday, y'all!

A Little Like Flying

Today's FB status: "Rachy" finally feels like everything is going right. I am so happy and so ready to start a new chapter in my life on a clean slate.


I am just feeling good. I have moved a hour or so north to be closer to the job that I start this week. I moved up here just in time for the opening social for the church class up here (love when timing works out that well!). Plus the area I'm living in is chock full of cool places to explore. And I'm just feeling lighter. 


I will try to be more regular about blogging. I know I've kinda fallen off the wagon. But I'm back (I hope).

Love to my SDG sisters on this beautiful Monday!

Hurting Still

I'm so ready to be done hurting. I am so ready to be able to breathe freely again. But I know that all things happen in God's timing, not mine. I know what it feels like when God lifts a burden, and trust that he will lift this one, but it can't come soon enough.

I still love my ex very much, and wish he weren't so broken. I wish we could fix this, but know we can't. I know that something very good will come out of all this, that no experience is wasted. But does it have to hurt so so much?

I just HURT!

Linking up with Jen.

Sunday Will Come

A beautiful Easter message given in a soothing tone. You are missed, Elder Wirthlin. Thank you for the reminder that Sunday will always come!